Ok - Junebug and I covered some of the anal in my Sex post. But I am sure it is not what men wanted to hear since it had to do with men liking a finger up their ass! You know you do and so don't deny it! And if you haven't tried it then you know you want to.

But that is not what I think Shane wants to hear. I think he wants a woman's point of view on anal sex. I could be wrong and he can correct me if I am.

Ok here is what I think about anal sex and I welcome any and all comments from both sexes. I personally am not willing to have anal sex with just anybody. I have had my booty calls in the past and that was one thing they never got from me. Anal sex is something I reserve for someone I am with long-term. Reason - I don't know except maybe it represents full submissiveness and I need to trust that person more than I do a booty call. The following are just MY opinions regarding anal sex.

1) If you are going to start than you better keep going. None of this starting and backing out shit. (no pun intended ) Go for it and keep going especially if you are a well-endowed boy.

2) Just because one girl likes it from one position, don't assume we all do.

3) For the most part, we are doing this for you! So appreciate it!

4) We don't want to hear if you have shit on your dick!

5) I might as well get off too so let me have that vibrator! And oh by the way, you will like the sensation of that vibrator!

6) Some of us like it rough, pull my hair and call me bitch, but not all of us. Just because you have your dick in my as doesn't mean you have to hurt us. (guess which way I like it?!? )

7) If we say we don't want to do it then stop bugging us! You won't change our mind! Mention it once and awhile but not constantly. It gets annoying and gives all the more reason to turn it down.

8) AND if we do have anal sex with you, it is NOT the only sex we want to have forever and forever. Don't forget there was sex before you stuck your dick up my ass!

Ok the balls in your court!

By the way, made it through the viewing tonight... couple of glasses of wine laster and I am feeling my oats...

Gotta Love Wine!!

Get through the funeral tomorrow and I'll be set. Next job, being there for her whenever she needs me. She's a great friend, I love her dearly and hate seeing her hurting.

I would certainly rather talk about SEX than this shit. Topic tomorrow.... more SEX! Help me out on this one Shane.. wanna share a topic from a woman and a man's point of view? Any topic - just let me know!

Pretty will set it up?!?....

Dreww

Ok, Big Shane doesn’t play fair so I thought I would write my own suggestions to women out there. Of course this does come from a woman’s point of view and I welcome comments from anyone most especially those men out there. I won’t give up all of my “secrets” but will gladly share some of those that I have given to my own daughter. I figure if she is going to have sex, she might as well have good sex.

1) Don’t just bob up and down on his cock! For goodness sakes women, show some enthusiasm! He likes it when you look up at him! He likes it when you lick it and treat it as though it were gold. Make him think it is the most incredible thing you have ever put in your mouth. You know how chocolate makes you feel? Ok, now times that by 10 and you will make your man happy! Oh, and if he stands up while in the act, it is more sensitive and he feels more dominant. Touch his freaking balls – I promise they won’t bite and he will tell you if he doesn’t like it. Let him grab a handful of hair and call you his bitch. (enough of that before things get outta hand here!)

2) Touch yourself…. Drive him out of his mind! Let him watch you get off!

3) Talk women talk… make some kind of noise. Shane did cover this one in his last post. Take his advice on that one!

4) Shave that thing!

5) Hey how about initiate once and awhile! Be happy your man wants you – he could be going somewhere else for it.

6) It IS the biggest, best, most beautiful cock you ever saw and you are his pussy!

7) Positions – try them all! You might actually find out you like something other than lying on your back.

8) Your man wants to feel desired too! So why not flirt with him during the day… grab HIS ass, tell him how much HE turns YOU on. Oh and here is an idea…. How about sex in the middle of the day?!

9) Nipples – you might be surprised at how sensitive his nipples are.

10) Ask him what turns him on… maybe he would like you to do something and thinks you won’t. Be open to anything he suggests.

Dreww

Just thought I would update everyone. Tonight I need to go look for something to wear. As you all know by now, I left my abuser with barely anything. So needless to say, the last thing I have is something nice to wear. Tomorrow is the viewing and I am not looking forward to that. I say that as if someone would be looking forward to it but you know what I mean. Thursday is a private burial and a small service at the site. His ashes (cremation after viewing) will be buried in the same cemetery as my daughter’s friend.

I visit her every day during my lunch and have stopped by every chance I get. My former in-laws made food and now I find out that there are about 5 other people bringing her meals. Hopefully, she won’t have to worry about that for awhile.

She seems to be holding up the best one can I guess. She told me that as long as she is busy things don’t seem as bad. Maybe what she means is that as long as she is busy then things don’t seem REAL! She had to take his clothes over to the funeral home today. She was picking fuzzies off the sweater when I was over and you could tell she was disconnecting herself at that time. I mean, she had this look of “look what a nice outfit I picked out for Jimmy, I hope everyone likes it, I should iron it, what should I do about these fuzzies” etc.

Now I will be selfish and tell you that I am trying to be strong! I am a very emotional person – very emotional. I am proud of how I have been able to keep those tears away when I am with her. I look at the pictures she picked out, I look at his clothes, I look at the poetry and help her and I don’t cry. I wanna cry! I wanna cry until every last ounce of liquid is drained from my body. But more than that, I want to be strong for her.

Yesterday on the way to work, I just started crying and I couldn’t stop. I cried walking into work and cried during work. I know that it isn’t all out yet and I can only pray that I don’t cry at the viewing but I think that is going to be next to impossible for me.

I don’t drink. I bought two bottles of wine last night!

Ok I am done being selfish.

Please pray for my friend and her family.


Dreww

I recently heard something about how we have so many seconds in our life.  That all it takes is one second to change everything.  That is simply a blink of the eye. 

When I was with my abuser and I didn't speak to Kitty, I had a best friend named Shelley.  I worked with Shelley and she saw what I was going through.  She was the one person I could confide to.  I lived with her the first time I left my abuser.  We have remained extremely tight.

Friday night, my buddy lost one second.  Her son was in an accident and didn't make it through it.  She had 30 years with him - 30 years not enough.  I sit here today with such a heavy heart.  No mother should ever have to go through this pain. 

This will be the third funeral since March that I will attend.  All three of them were way too young to die.  All three of them left mothers behind to mourn their loss for all eternity.  My daughter lost a very good friend to suicide in March.  Thousands attended his funeral.  He was loved by many many people.  Our star football player, track star and just Mr. Popular and with a wonderful personality to match. 

I visit his grave the 15th of every month in honor of his mother.  I make sure that I leave behind things so she knows he is not forgotten.  No mother wants to think their child has been forgotten.

Then our community lost another child to cancer.  She was a junior in high school.  The students raised $10,000 to help her go to New York for a last ditch effort to save her.  Several teacher said they would shave their heads if the kids raised $2,000. No one expected these kids to ever go as far as they did.  That was an open casket funeral.  I'll never forget that beautiful little girl laying inside there.  I'll never forget the tears flowing from every eye.

Now my buddy is the next to bury her baby.  Sometimes Life Ain't Always Beautiful....

I'll be writing more on this later but I just wanted to let all of you know.  Yesterday I went for a walk.  It is also my therapy.  Damn the rain today!  I took in every sight, every smell.  I can still smell the leaves that had fallen from the trees.  Do you know the smell I am talking about?  There is no other smell - it is the ultimate Fall smell.  Everything I looked at seemed to be more precious than it was the day before. 

I never take life for granted anyway - I've told you already that I live each day as if it were the last.  Some things like this just bring it all home.  My friend didn't get to say goodbye to her son.  Friday night he ran in the house, change his clothes and ran back out.  She never got to hold him tight and tell him how much she loved him.  She never got to tell  him not to take that damn motorcycle.  She never got to tell him that he was not riding that fucking bike and drinking at the same time.  She never got to ... fuck she just never go to....

Just one second.....

Dreww